Online dating kills your soul each day you leave your profile up. I wrote a pretty good profile for myself and put up a few flattering pics, but get nothing. I check almost every hour to see if anyone has clicked on me and each time I check, my heart sinks a little more.
So I change my profile, make it a little more detailed and even add in witty things or quotes. Take even better pics. I get a couple of views. I build up the courage to send the first messages, but get silence as a reply. Not even a “Sorry, not interested.” Was it what I wrote? I wasn’t being crude or too straight forword. Just small talk about thier interests.
So now, what is the problem? Is it my pics? Am I not attractive? Or is it my profile. I’ve basically put my likes and dislikes all on there. Is there no one that has anything in common with me? Maybe it’s because I’m a single parent?
So I lay thinking…what’s wrong with me? So much to give, but no one willing to accept it. Appreciate it. Cherish it. Like everyone else, I don’t want to be alone. I want to experience love again. To make someone laugh. To have someone to come home to. To be wanted and needed. But according to the site, the women I’m most compatible with are not interested in me.
As days and weeks go on. I lower my standards with each log in. Just hoping someone would talk to me. I even message the women I have nothing in common with. And then the women I don’t even find attractive. And again, silence.
Now I lay here like a discarded toy. A shell of my confident self. Waiting…